The Current Plan

I've been meaning to grab my list of tests and results from my 2nd miscarriage from the doc's and post it on here, but haven't gotten around to it. As you may remember I had my 2nd miscarriage in a row in June and the doc wanted to run a long list of tests. Well, they all came back normal except the antithrombin III. It was a little higher than the average, but my doc checked with a specialist and was told that the antithrombin III is not known to cause a miscarriage in the 1st trimester. The specialist found my case interesting and recommended to run 2 more test, which both returned normal. So, right now I'm taking Folbic (generic version of Foltx) and my prenatals (Citra Natal Assure). When I find out I'm pregnant again, then the doc will have me on Progesterone (compound cream) for 10 weeks. So, that's the plan since nothing seems to be really wrong with my body.

As for trying to conceive, we were planning on trying right away, but last month just thinking about another pregnancy made me exhausted. I mean just the every second of the day that you devote to eating, resting, etc because you're pregnant. Then there is that thought of miscarriage happening again and all the weeks of pregnancy and effort lost, which is discouraging in itself. Josh wants to try again and is ready for a little one. Every woman deals with a miscarriage in her own way and for me it has always been easier to be tough and positive in hard times than to give into the loss and grief. Well, right then, all of the sudden it dawned on me that I have devoted myself (physically, mentally, and emotionally) to conceiving, pregnancy, and miscarriage for the past year! I really need a break to focus on myself. Josh was a bit surprised, but he understands and is loving and supportive of whatever I decide. As of right now, I'm not going to go back on birth control and will continue taking my meds, but would like to hold off on trying to conceive until perhaps next year. I feel like I've tried my best, but things haven't worked out, which is okay, but I'm only 27 once and I'm going to enjoy being young and somewhat carefree for a little bit longer. If we conceive, then that's fine, but I don't want to try.

Also, I've put on like 20 pounds in the past 2 years, which really bothers me. Not because I consider myself fat, but because I hate that my clothes don't fit right or some don't fit at all and how I look in pictures. I feel like I need to work on myself and feel good about myself again in some ways. So, aside from just the running around that comes with summer, we are changing up things at our house.

Our living room never got any use out of it even though it was furninshed and I really want to lose weight so I suggested to Josh to turn our family room into a home gym and move the family room into our living room. We already had a few exercise machines at home scattered in different rooms. We've added two more and plan on adding a few more. I'm excited about not having to worry about how I look, or driving to and from a gym, and I can listen to my music or watch my recorded shows. We are blessed that we are able to this and we have friends who plan on coming over to work out too, so it'll be nice if the room helps others as well:) I've also changed my hair (back to having blonde highlights in it). My husband thinks that I'm going through an early mid-life crisis lol

My 1st EDD is coming up on Sept 8 and then I'll have my 2nd one on Feb 4. Our 5th year wedding anniversary is Sept 5, so that will probably over shadow the EDD a little. But I will probably take some time to reflect on my own.

<3 Sharon